sands of time slips...

u must have very well heard about the phrase and maybe also shrugged at the ugly prospects of it, but one thing you just can't do is testify its denial. its one of those hideous truths we prefer to close our eyes to. times change, auras change, perspectives change, and with it you change. the only question remains is, whether its for yr likeness or for real!!! you must have seen two kids strolling aimlessly hand in hand in a park. haven't you ever imagined you being one of them? hasn't the feeling of envy soaked you wet? haven't you ever felt loads of love inside waiting to be ushered on someone special, sharing ice creams, talking something as irrelevant as a candy not been given just for some extra nap time, abusing mommy for that and wishing for a more lenient one. the same two kids grow big and before they realize, those "losers" start calling them grown-ups, and then there are those "wannabes" who say they are cooler and hotter than them!!! like a black out, the kids are found dumb-struck to the yelling noises of the vicinity and gives in to the excruciating demands of "reality"!!! in a nutshell, this is a small anecdote of "slipping time".

okay. here goes. young innovative minds deserving much more than a stupid little college not even worth deir shit, are beckoned to realize the ugly truth of life. while having dreams of a premier institute like the IITs and the NITs and the likes of BITS and VELLOREs every night, they face the ugly reality the next morning. but sure, that never stopped them from dreaming; now for a better future. not sure about how to project oneself, making hell of a gaucherie of personality, and honing the goody-goody avatar, they try living a new-found existance. they are brave, care-a-damn and most significantly genuine kinda person. they are friendly[or, pretentiously so], lively and sensitive to the emotions of others. but there is something that goes on within which they have no clue of; a enigmatic network of feelings going on, which makes few so true friends that they make each other soulmates and few moment living in their world of non-chalance. every feeling has its reasons and eventualities.

well like all good times, these come to an end. they are filled with wisdom, knowledge and experience, and then, they feel, afterall they deserve to be better dressed, better projected, more acknowledged and respected "for what i am". i can still remember the times when calling a friend wrong, and apologising wasn't so hard. i remember the times when i didn't have to think a thousand times what to say when, whether it has any unsaid evil implications or whether it would hurt someone's emotions, simply because you know afterall you would be understood. the comments were existant then too, jus that i didn't feel the tinge of hatred and anger in them. when someone speaks, is it the real person, or the halo of the someone floating over the person's head? it's difficult to make out, even if you are a adroit examiner of human minds. the most irritating part is the thought that comes to my mind when i ask someone's help.am i being manipulative?am i doing all this just because he is of use to me right now? because i can see that happening around me!!! thinking....thinking...thinking....what the f***!! have i no other job to do? is this really f***ing worth it? so, these feelings die away enroute and in this infinite cycle, here is the moment of feeling lost and drowning in ecstasy. happiness is the only indespensable part of life. the rest can go to hell!!!