so much to lose.....

hmm...i m nostalgic but as it goes-GUYZ DONT CRY....isnt it?

hey damn cry? naa...but yeah,i felt bad 2de wen i had da last laugh wid some of ma frienx(or,are de) but u know wat...it doesn matter wat u feel abt me but u just cant stop me...get it?

we here at PAS had our farewell 2de.surely,i ll miss ma school more than ne1 but a thing to think s dat life doesn stop.wen we lose something ,we gain something.wen we part frm some1,we meet some1 new.so where s da point lamentin on wat we lost n whom we r partin frm.....

but 1 thing s for sure-i ll never get bak those des which i enjoyed in PAS. it s da place which has taught me dat i m DIFFERENT...dat i am not like ne1 in da crowd.it has given me dat confidence wid which i can b proud sayin i m a pentecostalite.

well...i hav lost many things...first ma mom's womb,then da nappy pads(hehe!!),then playin in mom's lap,then slates to write on,then Bhilai(ma birthplace),sleepin wid mom n dad,then st.joseph's n Vishakapatnam(AP),then ma sis(she went to hostel),ma innocense,then Durgapur alongwid frienx n HSMS,then da studin passion(n passin 2 sometimes), then da dad-son childish love,ma love(hey dere s a gr8 dilemma here) n now PAS....hmm,havnt thought dat i hav lost so many things,huh?

neways,i hav learnt to live wid all dis....n wat it helps me wid s dat it teaches to gain in every single thing i lose.

 

ma NUJS xams

Experience s truely a enigmatic teacher who takes da tests 1st n then teaches...

dis n many other things i hav learned in da past 2 desin kolkata.yeah,i was dere for da NUJS xams n hmm....1st of all,lemme tell u dat i m in wid a chance n NOTHIN ELSE.

students wre floodin in dere frm nowere n i was left baffled.well...i was surely in mirk.i ll not fake it,dere were some damn sexy grls(bengali grls r no doubt sexy,i knew dat b4) out dere but u know wat,dere s just 1 thing i can giv to ma lov(even if she doesn wanna) n dats TRUST....

hey forget it. dese chaff ll take me nowere n i know dis.well...dere s 1 thing i wud like to mention, frienx.

standin in front of me was a pretty grl.perhaps she tried to browbeat me alongwid her mommy.hmm...god gimme a chance to meet dat grl again.i wanna giv her a kiss n say,"thanx honey."hehe....

so talkin abt da xam,i hav already found 25-30 mistakes out of 180 quesns.well,ma elder cousin sis studyin dere said dat ne marks betn 120-150 ll b enough.but neways it was fun n all i hope s dat dis fun helps me land up somewere in life(hehe...which s not in ma genes neways)



 

where s dat passion of bloggin gone?

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painful DAYS,thinking NIGHTS....

Hey freinx, tell me y ppl think themselves great when they know something special? If I don know something n wanna learn it, y ppl think themselves superior n others inferior>? After all they hav learnt from sum 1!!!! N then y can’t I learn it from “sum 1”? ll I remain their freinx only b’coz I get to know something from them? Rightly said, no1 can clap by 1 hand!!!!!!!!! So is with friendship. I hav no1 else than ma sister, mom, dad n FREINX.then y do I among such small life get hurt??? I can’t say to ne1, coz I m in such an age but don’t we teens hav heart? Don’t we hav emotions? Don’t we get hurt??? Whatever, I can’t leave my freinx n pledge dat all freinx of mine in front of me, hav been, r n ll b equal for me. But plz, don’t hurt yr freinx……….

Srry I was driven by my emotion! but think over it n analyze yrself n don feel shy even to regret in front of yr freinx coz at least for me, freinx r ma life n I ll think twice b4 I break my friend’s heart…….

aM I kId??

Song of Savage Garden is on……………….but I m not enjoyin it……………..i m thinking…………………

Hav I grown up or I m dat mom’s kid???? 2 day was ma 1st day of class 11 n 2 day I realized dat I hav grown n if I m not I hav 2!! I was in utter flounder as I found no1 with me in ma section A whom I know except Nilesh (did I say, “know”? haha). All were of course unknown n seemed studious. All seemed maself a kid in front of the dadas……….not only in reference of the height n age but also their knowledge!!! All ma frienx r in section C- Sag, Sounak, Subh…………. I expected to enjoy the 1st day with the new day dreamin students on D-day but the world seemed twisted for ma!! Only the comp class was good enough coz I was with Sag who was busy showin his caliber n being a laughin stock (hey Sag, just babblin!!Srry). I was amazed on the while when I twisted ma face at ma left where a St.Xariers’ student was sitting. Would u beleiv it- the had gray hairs at the mere age of perhaps 17-18. haha. How much hrs did he study durin class 10 boards? God knows! He did not even talk to any 1 whole day- really frightening!!!! I had to pay attention of the very 1st day (which I generally do only on the last days of the academic yr!!!!!!!!!!)

Can I tackle these DADAS with beard n moustache …………………..God knows!!!!!!!!!!!!!

First Experience

I will not say dat it was a traumatic experience but surely an exquisite 1!! As I reached the portals of the DAV model school, my exam center, all the recipe of the cauldron of social studies was boiling in my head. I should regret I was tensed up. When there is 10 phone calls in the morning of the exam date, mother there with her radio on n a huge portion to learn, u can’t escape from it. I projected my harassed n fidgety self. The hall was great but the environment was horrifying. I began my exam well, as I had expected. I was cramped at some times but ultimately I wrote sumthin at the last by guessin. All was going on well till at the end, when map work came. I just made hell of guessin coz 15 min was left. I even left 3 marks for my recklessness!! The most disgustin of all was the invigilators repeatedly babbling the rules. I could understand the significance of my signature 2day!!! Haha. I signed about 3-4 times in 3 hrs of stipulated time. Great!! Whatever, I expect 80-85% n with god’s grace, I hope to get a good examiner for my paper, which believe me, frienx, is indispensable!!!

HOW CAN I GO BAK?

Hi frienx, today I hav written a poem. It s neither an ode nor a lyric but an emotional outburst. Piz send yr reply or u may mail me at sun_horizon05@yahoo.com. So here is it-


HOW CAN I GO BACK

Skies tell to me
R u in right path??
The sun says to me
Y r u in darkness??
The stars say to me
Don b so far!!
The clouds say to me
Drain yr heavy rain!!
The moon says to me
Y u fear when yr mind s as beautiful as me??

What will I answer??
I dunno!!
I wanna open up like sky,
Shine as sun,
Twinkle as star,
Rain as clouds,
Glow as moon, n
Glow like moon.

Hey almighty, u listenin me??
All say, u make us
So y can’t I b the best??
I find myself in a rendezvous
Where I can find path but no light,
N back,
I can find light but no path,
The barren desert here,
But how can I go back???

I threw the key

It was today when I realized wat a gaffe I had done. Hey, it wasn’t a surely a gaffe! Yesterday, after all the philippics of my parents about net, I was imbued in anger at the key with whose locks my comp is always locked by my parents when they r out. Couldn’t get it? Actually, my parents lock the wire of my comp when they r out. But luckily, I had got the duplicate key of the lock. I did net till 5-10 days when my mom n dad wre out. Hey, nothing bad.k? I just chat with my frienx. But yesterday, I was bored up chatin with those jenny n jezebels in room n also guilty for cheatin my parents. In utter flounder, I threw the key away. But today, I suffered the pangs of anxiety. I went out to search for the key really early for me at 8 am as soon as my parents went to their work. But wat is thrown is thrown. In low ebb, I came bak n searched for the original key in home optimistically. There 2 I had no fate (surely, my mom had taken it). Ultimately, I sat down to read but my mind just repudiated n I got up n switched on my borin TV.

O god, u ll surely say dat I’ve done a great thin but cum to my place n then u can realize wat heavenly sacrifice I have done!!!