Tuesday, July 22, 2008

We r indians....hav a "CHANGE"!!!

"Tum agar mujhko na chaho to koi baat nahi,tum agar kissi aur ko chahogi to mushkil hogi!"- Lalu

Wudn hav don so even if i had as disgustin xcuse as playin comp games bt wud ya beleiv it, it was da 1st tym i was viewin a full fledged parliamentary session frm da commensment till da end!!! n keep apart da whole controversy wich s gonna make headlines da next few des, i really njoyed it!!!da ultimate one stop show fr one n all, it was.startin frm few awesome speeches wid a tinge of tymly humour frm da one n only speaker, a reality show, a mommy's soap, a intellectual laughter show, a business show wid notes flung all around n finally a disgrace show fr da whole nation!!!!!!!

take a note of dis...don mistake sayin ne1 n every1 can tk da seat of a honorary position in da parliament,ie a Politician. it was one of da best debates i hav eva seen. Advani as a Leader of Opposition, was xceptionally gud at mockery n raisin jitters thru yr body wid fear n alarm at da passage of da controversial Nuke deal takin da PM on personally. Pranab Mukherjee was gud wid his cruked benglish bt was equally effectiv in defendin his side aftr a offendin stand taken by da erstwhile speeker Advani. Chidambaram's was a factually enlightenin n a gud speech wid consideration given to da technical aspects of da deal. fr me wat stood out was da speech of Rahul Gandhi. Takin da house's sentiment rite frm da scratch by speakin as a Indian rather a respectable leader of a political party, his instances of Sashikala m Kalavati [Kalavati...vati....vati....Mayavati...vita....vita - gr8 innovation if he had dis in mind!] wre very much ethical. he doesn exude enuf confidence rite now bt wat he does hav s dat grace wich s so much alarmingly abscondin in da politicians. no doubt he s a potential prime ministrial candidate. i specifically liked his thought of doin things widout da fear of its future consequences.wats next cn jus b sm1's guess bt all we can do s hav full faith in ourselves wen we tk a vital decision. until we xplore da unknown n unseen we jus cannot noe wats in our path.even if dre s a failure, cumon lick it!!! atleast liv it rather dan listenin abt it frm oders... damn g8 view man....We as citizens rnt newhere as intelleectual as our leaders n lets face it neither me nor you noe da details of da 123 Aggrement n Hyde Act. so lets leav it to dem....dats deir job! Comin bak to da speeches, Lalu's speech was uasually intellectual yet humourous.well we see da humour in things bt in da process miss da wild mockery he ushers on da opposition, da sootthin realisation-instigatin n warmly welcome of his former allies, da appreciation to his party leaders n most importantly his high intellect. Not to forget da adrenaline of Omar Abdullah....he was damn gud in da pressure he was in wen dere was total macchi-bazaar all around n da lady speeker who was equally passionate.

Wen i thought da game was nearin its end wid balance shiftin towards da Congress govt da incidents dat followed showed it was all bt over!Totally a blot in da nem of parliament as notes started doin da talkin. it showed how disgraceful notes can b. At da 1st perspectiv it looked all made up wid jus few minutes b4 da final vote n da way it was presented to make it look no less dan a broker's udda bt takin into consideration Advani alledgin n his serious endevour to make things look concernin n tense, it looks to me a news wich s gonna make news fr months.

neways really who cares rite? its jus noder de in office fr dese jerks. no doubt dese stuffs ll b seen buried way deep as soon as it cam into xistance.Wat came as a gr8 feelin fr me s da calmness n responsibility showin in da face of our speeker sir Mr. Somnath Mukherjee. da way he looks gentle since da 2 des of debate under da pressure of da partisan politics was exqiusite. he n onle he cud hav n can manage dese hooligans in Lok Sabha. Hope all stays well fr us n let goddamn wat happens, India prospers under ne goddamn govt. dat stays in power.Dats all we can do n aspire for!!!

Sunday, July 06, 2008

n now...a 4 yrs of life!!!!

Sounds terrible but m kinda glad to say dat m goin to Orissa fr atleast the next 4 yrs!!!

yeah,well its nt gr8 but m nt frettin either...missed iit wid a whisker bt neways gettin a mere rank s nt wat i was fightin fr wen u cant get a admssn wid it!!!!n aieee was a nightmare.yeah it sounds terrible after a yr of prepn but smthings u cant help!!! u dn always get yr true worth so soon i guess.was a wee bit fidgety abt da results jus after i got dem. it sounds so identically sik bt i had given all i had dis yr. takin responsibility lik neva b4, goin fr tuitions in dose chillin n sweatin dusks to dawns, bein lonely as eva as well as livin wid sm sik ppl around n burnin sm late night "batteries" sn as eezie as it looks fr a dumb lazy mindfreak kid lik me....jus did everthin i cud but ya, i missed it in a significant step....PRACTISE PRACTISE n PRACTISE....all i did ws to get ova da physics phobia,masterin ma muggin skills in chem n no doubt takin ma maths to noder level. di told me ova n ova again. i really didn dump it in a go but again, didn follow it thru n thru....sm more pprs of aieee cud hav dn wonders....well y didn i get thru iit den huh?dunno but sm quesns ll remain unanswered i guess....

talkin abt practise i really did dat fr isi n in a much wider xtent ojee...it didn pay off in isi tho as i found maself nt among perhaps da 70 odd best mathematicians of da country yet i cn say it went damn better dan i xpected out of me...solvin 25 out of 30 tough objectives[mayb 4-5 may hav gn wrong bt nt more] n 5 horrifyin subjectives[ws a odd feelin writin in sheets wen u dn hav a practise of doin dat even fr more dan 30 mins at a stretch...reminded me of boards n many things alongwid!!!!]n while givin ojee di was already here n it did all da difference.she made me practise n by da tym i was at bhubaneswar fr givin da xam i was almost fully versed wid da ojee xplorer of mtg.n luckily it paid off..a 173 gen rank n military qota rank of 7....

now wid dis rank i cn get a GEC[gov engrn coll] cet,bbsr.it perhaps da best coll of da state.well dis may sound controversial wen we compare kiits n cet bt i guess m rite....bring into monetary aspect of it n u jus cant defy me...ha ha!!!!all i cn say s dat dis s da best coll ne1 cn get frm ojee. frm wat i hav heard it s nt dat bad...da electronics dept has many b.tech,iit kgp faculty n cs was always ma preference.lets c if i dn get electronics i ll take up cs oderwise electrical.n no doubt dis s nt da end of da road.i hav decided to giv ma best fr da cats n rats xams[i mean iim n oders] cuz a b.tech degree of cet s nt a gr8 career in ne sense...jus dn want to do a usual 3.somethin annual job in bangalore!!!!hope it turns out to b gud n b ma background fr sm iim in yrs to come!!!!

Monday, February 11, 2008

2 months of lif...



Life's tough no doubt....but u no wat "Bring it on now!!!"

17 years hav gon into dumps...n ll make up for dose years now! dunno wats gonna happen but 1 thing s for sure, i hav changed. i feel it within me...was i eva a human? now i hav enuf 2 take up dis bloody damn world...wat i did was onle fake maself n mess around in ma life.with new found life wid sum special ppl around i hav turned da table now!!! hey dis life has made me dance at its tune for a long long time but now its ma turn now baibey!!!!!!! well i hav been da rudest soman eva, da calm soman eva, da stupid soman eva, da borin soman eva, but dats whre da diff lies...a advice here, guys dere s no plce fr emotions here!!!!don eva think abt nethin oder dan yrself...its U n Ur LIFE...start a de wid dis shit in yr mind n c how yr de transforms!!!!!!!!

n hey frenship rox!!!!!! u may speak 2 a hundred ppl in a de but u gotcha hav som u can giv yr heart for! man der s just a tiny little gap.njoy but dat line s da D thing...n m a lucky man!!!!!! ppl r dre all around to wag deir tails up behind ya!!! its just dose commoners...n dre r few ofcourse who nail ya...u got 2speak rite at da face, "fuk off!"

jus pray to da almighty dat all goes rite dese few months n den....c a new avatar of sOmAn....da EnigmaLord

Friday, March 02, 2007



Look.. if you had.. one shot, or one opportunity
To seize everything you ever wanted.. in one moment
Would you capture it.. or just let it slip? Yo..

His palms are sweaty, knees weak, arms are heavy
There's vomit on his sweater already, mom's spaghetti
He's nervous, but on the surface he looks calm and ready
to drops bombs, but he keeps on forgetting
what he wrote down, the whole crowd goes so loud
He opens his mouth but the words won't come out
He's chokin, how? Everybody's jokin now
The clock's run out, time's up, over - BLAOW!
Snap back to reality, OHH - there goes gravity
OHH - there goes Rabbit, he choked
He's so mad, but he won't
Give up that easy nope, he won't have it
He knows, his whole back's to these ropes
It don't matter, he's dope
He knows that, but he's broke
He's so sad that he knows
when he goes back to this mobile home, that's when it's
back to the lab again, yo, this whole rap shit
He better go capture this moment and hope it don't pass him


You better - lose yourself in the music, the moment
You own it, you better never let it go (go)
You only get one shot, do not miss your chance to blow
This opportunity comes once in a lifetime
You better - lose yourself in the music, the moment
You own it, you better never let it go (go)
You only get one shot, do not miss your chance to blow
This opportunity comes once in a lifetime
You better..


hey how s dis for 2de? no fakin it,dis s obviously not mine.dis s a rap of eninem.so read it again bro...n feel it.u ll surely find me in dere.

"keep smilin"...dats wat da "halo" of chinmaya portals said...n dats wat i m doin.bring me dat.lets hav some cheers n lemme forget dis shit.

how kooooool i was n a bit proud frm within...but dat just b4 da damnshit phy xam.n c me now...perhaps god's grace n somethin more than dat can gimme 80.da most frusto part of all was wen i saw da smile on all faces.i was feelin as if some1 was laughin at ma face n sayin,"c...c yr ppr.dats yr fate baibey." thinkin....thinkin....thinkin(push)"hey soman kaisa gayaa.iiiiitnaaaaa eeeezieeeeee ppr.jo padhke aye the wohi aaya.how laaky i am naa!tera kaisa gaya?""fuk off man.just freak out of here."dad had not cum.so acted sOmAn for a while.

dad came n we wre off...lolz,wat else?

yes dere s....not selected for NUJS.damn how cud i get 131?not just possible.135 cutoff....but y am i writin dis in ma blog.c me all, a suker loser here!!!!!!!!!!!



Wednesday, February 14, 2007

valentine's day........or is it?



hey u ppl out dere, how many of u hav made a friend yr lov.....coz dis s not wat i m gonna ask next.

hav u ever made yr lov a friend on dis very day? seems funny. snt it? but mind u,i m not kiddin out here.well....I HAV!!!!!!!!

yeah, i hav her a gift but it was nothin but a"don forget me" stuff n nothin else.n how s a bracelet n a card for dat? u thinkin i m crying, i m shattered, i m in a world of solace n sorrow? naa...hehe. coz for me,destiny rulez n ll rule forever.in fact,dere hav never been nething called "love" between us.2de wat happened was ma love being taken in a palenquin to be given to da hands of destiny. n i? damn did da hmm.....wats dat bloddy stuff called....yeah,kanyadaan.....

hey amnt i gettin damn philosophical out here?bullshit....but da lesson for da day- dis day s not onle for lovers. neways,enjoy da day wid yr OWN ones n b4 i forget,
                               
      HAPPY VALENTINE'S(hey it not VALENTINES'...get it?) DAY



Saturday, February 10, 2007

destiny rulez...



believ me guyz,dere is nothin u can do.dere s nothin u can help in da spoilin times.dere s nothin u can do to recover a relationship.nothin s in yr fist.so let it happen...let destiny rule....

well,me?i hav ofcourse left everything to destiny....ma life,ma career,ma passion n ofcourse ma love. boards r not knockin on da door,rather it has entered ma room n s seein me drollin on n on.ma career?as i hav said b4 i m still not sure dat i hav been destined to b engineer or some1 else.ma passion?hmm...wat s ma passion?well..destiny changes it time n again.as for now,dere s nothin.but don wrry,destiny ll surely gimme 1 soon.ma love....hey forget it.dere s just friendship n nothin else....n believin in destiny s fun,its rejuvination,its a way to c a new world everytime u open up yr eyes.

so frienx,sit in destiny's lap n let it take u to da neother world all together.understand destiny n believ me,da elixir s yrs....


 

Monday, February 05, 2007

say,"beeest offf laaaak"



yeah,ma board xam has started n i m here njoyin da same legato life...hey i know dats nothin to b proud of but den...dats me


no need to wrry,ma prepn s already don n i know dat it cant b bad.da only thing i fear s da viva coz i cant ans quesn lik"who invented C++?","wat s sachin's latest LG ratin?"," think yr program s rite,dear?"....n stuffs lik dat.


naa,comp s ma interest n no fakin it,i lov da subject.but it all depends on da day....well,i ll surely look out for dose shalik couples n cats not crossin ma route....blah blah


hey,so say"beeest offf laaaak"!!!!

Thursday, February 01, 2007

sOmAn s day-dreamin...watch out



yeah...i am day-dreamin of everything dat i can do in NUJS....

goddamn i don wanna fry ma mind in dis couldron of physics n chemistry.i sometimes feel dat i hav been born to study law n not all dis shit.god,just gimme a chance.i wanna do wat i like n not wat i m forced to.

i m gettin crazy...thinkin of raggin in NUJS,makin freinx out dere,eatin n enjoyin dere,studyin all alone in ma room where dere s no 1 to disturb n taunt dat i never study, n wat not....i m bcumin mundane in studyin physics n stuffs though i know dat i hardly hav a month b4 da board xams.but i cant let ma heart lose coz i know dat it may leav in a rendezvous where movin neside means DEATH!!!!!!

n den dere s mom's demand to study 20 hrs a day which i cant.how can i explain her dat.but den neways i hav to listen n do as she likes-keep maself bolted to ma room doin nothin but fukin ma time out .n hey,i do study sometimes.hehe.........


 

 

Wednesday, January 31, 2007

so much to lose.....



hmm...i m nostalgic but as it goes-GUYZ DONT CRY....isnt it?

hey damn cry? naa...but yeah,i felt bad 2de wen i had da last laugh wid some of ma frienx(or,are de) but u know wat...it doesn matter wat u feel abt me but u just cant stop me...get it?

we here at PAS had our farewell 2de.surely,i ll miss ma school more than ne1 but a thing to think s dat life doesn stop.wen we lose something ,we gain something.wen we part frm some1,we meet some1 new.so where s da point lamentin on wat we lost n whom we r partin frm.....

but 1 thing s for sure-i ll never get bak those des which i enjoyed in PAS. it s da place which has taught me dat i m DIFFERENT...dat i am not like ne1 in da crowd.it has given me dat confidence wid which i can b proud sayin i m a pentecostalite.

well...i hav lost many things...first ma mom's womb,then da nappy pads(hehe!!),then playin in mom's lap,then slates to write on,then Bhilai(ma birthplace),sleepin wid mom n dad,then st.joseph's n Vishakapatnam(AP),then ma sis(she went to hostel),ma innocense,then Durgapur alongwid frienx n HSMS,then da studin passion(n passin 2 sometimes), then da dad-son childish love,ma love(hey dere s a gr8 dilemma here) n now PAS....hmm,havnt thought dat i hav lost so many things,huh?

neways,i hav learnt to live wid all dis....n wat it helps me wid s dat it teaches to gain in every single thing i lose.


 

Tuesday, January 30, 2007

ma NUJS xams



Experience s truely a enigmatic teacher who takes da tests 1st n then teaches...

dis n many other things i hav learned in da past 2 desin kolkata.yeah,i was dere for da NUJS xams n hmm....1st of all,lemme tell u dat i m in wid a chance n NOTHIN ELSE.

students wre floodin in dere frm nowere n i was left baffled.well...i was surely in mirk.i ll not fake it,dere were some damn sexy grls(bengali grls r no doubt sexy,i knew dat b4) out dere but u know wat,dere s just 1 thing i can giv to ma lov(even if she doesn wanna) n dats TRUST....

hey forget it. dese chaff ll take me nowere n i know dis.well...dere s 1 thing i wud like to mention, frienx.

standin in front of me was a pretty grl.perhaps she tried to browbeat me alongwid her mommy.hmm...god gimme a chance to meet dat grl again.i wanna giv her a kiss n say,"thanx honey."hehe....

so talkin abt da xam,i hav already found 25-30 mistakes out of 180 quesns.well,ma elder cousin sis studyin dere said dat ne marks betn 120-150 ll b enough.but neways it was fun n all i hope s dat dis fun helps me land up somewere in life(hehe...which s not in ma genes neways)




 

Saturday, January 20, 2007

where s dat passion of bloggin gone?

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Sunday, May 08, 2005

painful DAYS,thinking NIGHTS....


Hey freinx, tell me y ppl think themselves great when they know something special? If I don know something n wanna learn it, y ppl think themselves superior n others inferior>? After all they hav learnt from sum 1!!!! N then y can’t I learn it from “sum 1”? ll I remain their freinx only b’coz I get to know something from them? Rightly said, no1 can clap by 1 hand!!!!!!!!! So is with friendship. I hav no1 else than ma sister, mom, dad n FREINX.then y do I among such small life get hurt??? I can’t say to ne1, coz I m in such an age but don’t we teens hav heart? Don’t we hav emotions? Don’t we get hurt??? Whatever, I can’t leave my freinx n pledge dat all freinx of mine in front of me, hav been, r n ll b equal for me. But plz, don’t hurt yr freinx……….

Srry I was driven by my emotion! but think over it n analyze yrself n don feel shy even to regret in front of yr freinx coz at least for me, freinx r ma life n I ll think twice b4 I break my friend’s heart…….

Tuesday, April 05, 2005

aM I kId??


Song of Savage Garden is on……………….but I m not enjoyin it……………..i m thinking…………………

Hav I grown up or I m dat mom’s kid???? 2 day was ma 1st day of class 11 n 2 day I realized dat I hav grown n if I m not I hav 2!! I was in utter flounder as I found no1 with me in ma section A whom I know except Nilesh (did I say, “know”? haha). All were of course unknown n seemed studious. All seemed maself a kid in front of the dadas……….not only in reference of the height n age but also their knowledge!!! All ma frienx r in section C- Sag, Sounak, Subh…………. I expected to enjoy the 1st day with the new day dreamin students on D-day but the world seemed twisted for ma!! Only the comp class was good enough coz I was with Sag who was busy showin his caliber n being a laughin stock (hey Sag, just babblin!!Srry). I was amazed on the while when I twisted ma face at ma left where a St.Xariers’ student was sitting. Would u beleiv it- the had gray hairs at the mere age of perhaps 17-18. haha. How much hrs did he study durin class 10 boards? God knows! He did not even talk to any 1 whole day- really frightening!!!! I had to pay attention of the very 1st day (which I generally do only on the last days of the academic yr!!!!!!!!!!)

Can I tackle these DADAS with beard n moustache …………………..God knows!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Friday, March 04, 2005

First Experience


I will not say dat it was a traumatic experience but surely an exquisite 1!! As I reached the portals of the DAV model school, my exam center, all the recipe of the cauldron of social studies was boiling in my head. I should regret I was tensed up. When there is 10 phone calls in the morning of the exam date, mother there with her radio on n a huge portion to learn, u can’t escape from it. I projected my harassed n fidgety self. The hall was great but the environment was horrifying. I began my exam well, as I had expected. I was cramped at some times but ultimately I wrote sumthin at the last by guessin. All was going on well till at the end, when map work came. I just made hell of guessin coz 15 min was left. I even left 3 marks for my recklessness!! The most disgustin of all was the invigilators repeatedly babbling the rules. I could understand the significance of my signature 2day!!! Haha. I signed about 3-4 times in 3 hrs of stipulated time. Great!! Whatever, I expect 80-85% n with god’s grace, I hope to get a good examiner for my paper, which believe me, frienx, is indispensable!!!

Sunday, February 20, 2005

HOW CAN I GO BAK?



Hi frienx, today I hav written a poem. It s neither an ode nor a lyric but an emotional outburst. Piz send yr reply or u may mail me at sun_horizon05@yahoo.com. So here is it-


HOW CAN I GO BACK

Skies tell to me
R u in right path??
The sun says to me
Y r u in darkness??
The stars say to me
Don b so far!!
The clouds say to me
Drain yr heavy rain!!
The moon says to me
Y u fear when yr mind s as beautiful as me??

What will I answer??
I dunno!!
I wanna open up like sky,
Shine as sun,
Twinkle as star,
Rain as clouds,
Glow as moon, n
Glow like moon.

Hey almighty, u listenin me??
All say, u make us
So y can’t I b the best??
I find myself in a rendezvous
Where I can find path but no light,
N back,
I can find light but no path,
The barren desert here,
But how can I go back???


Tuesday, February 15, 2005

I threw the key



It was today when I realized wat a gaffe I had done. Hey, it wasn’t a surely a gaffe! Yesterday, after all the philippics of my parents about net, I was imbued in anger at the key with whose locks my comp is always locked by my parents when they r out. Couldn’t get it? Actually, my parents lock the wire of my comp when they r out. But luckily, I had got the duplicate key of the lock. I did net till 5-10 days when my mom n dad wre out. Hey, nothing bad.k? I just chat with my frienx. But yesterday, I was bored up chatin with those jenny n jezebels in room n also guilty for cheatin my parents. In utter flounder, I threw the key away. But today, I suffered the pangs of anxiety. I went out to search for the key really early for me at 8 am as soon as my parents went to their work. But wat is thrown is thrown. In low ebb, I came bak n searched for the original key in home optimistically. There 2 I had no fate (surely, my mom had taken it). Ultimately, I sat down to read but my mind just repudiated n I got up n switched on my borin TV.

O god, u ll surely say dat I’ve done a great thin but cum to my place n then u can realize wat heavenly sacrifice I
have done!!!
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